Changes? My concentration sucks :c

so guys. Ive been thinking about this blog allot lately. and I want to post more. I need to post more.
I miss posting. and Im really trying to get better about committing to things.
Like homework. and my youtube.
and its honestly really hard for me. Because I have such a hard time focusing on one thing for longer than 10 minutes. So its not easy for me to get things done if they take longer than 10 minutes.
Its excruciating. Like I wish I could explain to my parents, and my psychologist, and friends, and people who call me lazy... That I try. I used to try really hard. For the longest time. and then last year I just gave up on EVERYTHING. Like If it took a lasting effort to focus on breathing I probably would have given up. Thank god breathing doesnt require my focus or id be dead.
But its extremely frustrating. Wanting to get things done but not actually getting them done.
Its like...
One thing calls out to me calling for my attention. To do something. anything.
And then minutes, even moments later something else grabs my attention and makes me totally forget what I was doing.
and it continues to happen with multiple things throughout the day. never ending.
Why I never get things FINISHED. Why sometimes Ill begin to write something for this blog but Ill get distracted and then not post it because Ive forgotten about it or the circumstances changed about what I was writing about, or id run out of time do work on it or w/e.
My dad calls me Lazy.
People who dont understand call me lazy.
And I mean for somethings I dont have very much motivation. for whatever reason I just dont sometimes. Even if I want to get something done.
I wish I had a cellphone...and that would have internet access. Then I could get an instagram and I could post to my blog waayyy more often. because sometimes I think of things to write about in my classes and they get forgotten about. If I had a cellphone...one with internet access, I could post to this blog so much more.
without having to take tooo much time out of the other things I need to get done.
But Im going to try to post more. So...
I might have Blogger up constantly now.
so if I get the urge to post a status to facebook(wich I tend to make long statuses XD) or if I post to a group im in (wich is always long pretty much) then Ill first write it here and post it here, and THEN ill post it to facebook. If I post to facebook first then copy and paste it here for some reason it turns it into a quote and that looks silly. But if I write and post the other way around it wont do that on facebook so o .o
God.... did I get off on a tangent???
I dont even know. Im literally too focused on getting this done to bother to look back.
and I know whatever I wrote has a point to it. so. So like even my thoughts arent focused for long periods of time.

Gah. I think im done saying what I wanted to say.
maybe.
idek.
Whale this has been an interesting post.