So My skeleton Hands came in the mail!!! If youre subscribed to my facebook...wich you should be because youll get more updates and stuff that way... Then you would know I ordered skeleton hands :DD to make skeleton hand hairclips. So im going to make a few for myself and then Im going to give one of the pairs away and then I might sell a pair or 2 that Ill mod.
I cant wait!! I got back to my moms house yesterday after school and was immediately like OHH MAHGURSH.THEY CAME IN DURMAILLL. UNNNF.
And I was going to work on making a few pairs last night but ultimately ended up not getting to it because I started a diff project...I have problems starting and finishing projects and constantly having ideas for new things if you didnt notice. Its great and frustrating at the same time :c
I wont be telling you guys what the project is till im finished with it... sorry guys! <3 I want to see how well it works and then if I like the outcome Ill buy supplies to make some to sell!!! :D So well just call it "THE PROJECT" for now XD
Im about half finished with it :DD
So ima try to keep you guys updated :)
And I am trying to keep my blog active for you all <3
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Paranoia. and The House At The End of The Street.
I know I said I didnt want to copy and paste from facebook but I posted this the other day(saturday LOL sorry guys) And I wanted to post it here but never got around to it :T
Soo...
I watched House At the End of the Street. And it was a really good movie...But its was honestly really ...triggering.
And I dont mean like self harm triggering. I got past that quite a while ago thank god. But emotionally It was triggering. there were a few scenes where mothers were involved and said mothers were hurt in some way or killed. And Ive been having a ton of trouble lately with paranoia and missing my mother. The movie pretty much gave me an anxiety attack. I started thinking about how my mother was doing at that moment. I worry about her. ALLOT. And parts of me try to convince myself shes fine, but other parts are telling me anything could be happening. And I just dont know because Im with my dad half the time because theyre split up.
And I really feel like I need to see my psychologist lately .-.
Soo...
I watched House At the End of the Street. And it was a really good movie...But its was honestly really ...triggering.
And I dont mean like self harm triggering. I got past that quite a while ago thank god. But emotionally It was triggering. there were a few scenes where mothers were involved and said mothers were hurt in some way or killed. And Ive been having a ton of trouble lately with paranoia and missing my mother. The movie pretty much gave me an anxiety attack. I started thinking about how my mother was doing at that moment. I worry about her. ALLOT. And parts of me try to convince myself shes fine, but other parts are telling me anything could be happening. And I just dont know because Im with my dad half the time because theyre split up.
And I really feel like I need to see my psychologist lately .-.
Sunday, September 23, 2012
Changes? My concentration sucks :c
so guys. Ive been thinking about this blog allot lately. and I want to post more. I need to post more.
I miss posting. and Im really trying to get better about committing to things.
Like homework. and my youtube.
and its honestly really hard for me. Because I have such a hard time focusing on one thing for longer than 10 minutes. So its not easy for me to get things done if they take longer than 10 minutes.
Its excruciating. Like I wish I could explain to my parents, and my psychologist, and friends, and people who call me lazy... That I try. I used to try really hard. For the longest time. and then last year I just gave up on EVERYTHING. Like If it took a lasting effort to focus on breathing I probably would have given up. Thank god breathing doesnt require my focus or id be dead.
But its extremely frustrating. Wanting to get things done but not actually getting them done.
Its like...
One thing calls out to me calling for my attention. To do something. anything.
And then minutes, even moments later something else grabs my attention and makes me totally forget what I was doing.
and it continues to happen with multiple things throughout the day. never ending.
Why I never get things FINISHED. Why sometimes Ill begin to write something for this blog but Ill get distracted and then not post it because Ive forgotten about it or the circumstances changed about what I was writing about, or id run out of time do work on it or w/e.
My dad calls me Lazy.
People who dont understand call me lazy.
And I mean for somethings I dont have very much motivation. for whatever reason I just dont sometimes. Even if I want to get something done.
I wish I had a cellphone...and that would have internet access. Then I could get an instagram and I could post to my blog waayyy more often. because sometimes I think of things to write about in my classes and they get forgotten about. If I had a cellphone...one with internet access, I could post to this blog so much more.
without having to take tooo much time out of the other things I need to get done.
But Im going to try to post more. So...
I might have Blogger up constantly now.
so if I get the urge to post a status to facebook(wich I tend to make long statuses XD) or if I post to a group im in (wich is always long pretty much) then Ill first write it here and post it here, and THEN ill post it to facebook. If I post to facebook first then copy and paste it here for some reason it turns it into a quote and that looks silly. But if I write and post the other way around it wont do that on facebook so o .o
God.... did I get off on a tangent???
I dont even know. Im literally too focused on getting this done to bother to look back.
and I know whatever I wrote has a point to it. so. So like even my thoughts arent focused for long periods of time.
Gah. I think im done saying what I wanted to say.
maybe.
idek.
Whale this has been an interesting post.
I miss posting. and Im really trying to get better about committing to things.
Like homework. and my youtube.
and its honestly really hard for me. Because I have such a hard time focusing on one thing for longer than 10 minutes. So its not easy for me to get things done if they take longer than 10 minutes.
Its excruciating. Like I wish I could explain to my parents, and my psychologist, and friends, and people who call me lazy... That I try. I used to try really hard. For the longest time. and then last year I just gave up on EVERYTHING. Like If it took a lasting effort to focus on breathing I probably would have given up. Thank god breathing doesnt require my focus or id be dead.
But its extremely frustrating. Wanting to get things done but not actually getting them done.
Its like...
One thing calls out to me calling for my attention. To do something. anything.
And then minutes, even moments later something else grabs my attention and makes me totally forget what I was doing.
and it continues to happen with multiple things throughout the day. never ending.
Why I never get things FINISHED. Why sometimes Ill begin to write something for this blog but Ill get distracted and then not post it because Ive forgotten about it or the circumstances changed about what I was writing about, or id run out of time do work on it or w/e.
My dad calls me Lazy.
People who dont understand call me lazy.
And I mean for somethings I dont have very much motivation. for whatever reason I just dont sometimes. Even if I want to get something done.
I wish I had a cellphone...and that would have internet access. Then I could get an instagram and I could post to my blog waayyy more often. because sometimes I think of things to write about in my classes and they get forgotten about. If I had a cellphone...one with internet access, I could post to this blog so much more.
without having to take tooo much time out of the other things I need to get done.
But Im going to try to post more. So...
I might have Blogger up constantly now.
so if I get the urge to post a status to facebook(wich I tend to make long statuses XD) or if I post to a group im in (wich is always long pretty much) then Ill first write it here and post it here, and THEN ill post it to facebook. If I post to facebook first then copy and paste it here for some reason it turns it into a quote and that looks silly. But if I write and post the other way around it wont do that on facebook so o .o
God.... did I get off on a tangent???
I dont even know. Im literally too focused on getting this done to bother to look back.
and I know whatever I wrote has a point to it. so. So like even my thoughts arent focused for long periods of time.
Gah. I think im done saying what I wanted to say.
maybe.
idek.
Whale this has been an interesting post.
Depressing. School. Shit.
Schools been going for about 2 and a half weeks for me. And now Im starting to get depressed. I was supposed to stay after today but My stomach started hurting and I started getting a headache so my teacher let me go home. And by the time I got onto the bus I was close to tears from being exhausted and depressed. And the other day I was close to tears on the bus too.
I cant stand not seeing my best friend and all my other graduated friends. I got sick last week for 3 days and at the end of the third day a bunch of my older friends I never get to see went to the movies and though I was invited I couldnt go .-. I wanted to throw things at that point.
In almost all of my classes I dont feel welcome, And/Or Im the oldest. And Im sick of hearing the immature shit these juniors/sophomores do. All the disrespect they have for teachers.
I literally had to explain to my dad the other day why I have next to no friends in school and why I didnt want to go to the homecoming football game. Ive only been with my dad 2 days and I already miss my mom to the point of paranoia.
I really need to talk to my psychologist...
~something I wrote on my facebook~
I cant stand not seeing my best friend and all my other graduated friends. I got sick last week for 3 days and at the end of the third day a bunch of my older friends I never get to see went to the movies and though I was invited I couldnt go .-. I wanted to throw things at that point.
In almost all of my classes I dont feel welcome, And/Or Im the oldest. And Im sick of hearing the immature shit these juniors/sophomores do. All the disrespect they have for teachers.
I literally had to explain to my dad the other day why I have next to no friends in school and why I didnt want to go to the homecoming football game. Ive only been with my dad 2 days and I already miss my mom to the point of paranoia.
I really need to talk to my psychologist...
~something I wrote on my facebook~
My pictures are on the internet...in weird places.
Its strange to find out that one of your recent pictures is on a Czech like page's album for hair styles and it has 130 something likes and you cant understand what the comments say because theyre all commenting in Slovak or something O____O
And not too long ago I found someone who took one of my pictures on tumblr, saved it and blogged it from their own tumblr without giving me credit or sourcing the image =______=
Like seriously people??? If your going to reblog an image you like of someone or someones art, DONT CHANGE THE SOURCE. GIVE THEM CREDIT. JEEEEEZ.
not long after I saw a picture of anywigwilldo's, or PastelAi as she is known on youtube, and someone did the same thing! They didnt give her credit where credit was due.
I dont mind being featured on like pages, but these past two times ive found out about the pages using my images, within the past 48 hrs. Ive found out because facebook friends or subscribers found it first and tagged me in it. The first like page gave me credit but werent able to tag my name for some reason :T
Where are they even finding my pictures??? Like How?? I cant imagine being able to search blue hair or something and being able to find my pictures. Its not likely that I show up. I know I can be found as Risa Fox, But if people are finding me as Risa Fox Then surely they can atleast give me credit. Like come on guys its not that hard..
Saturday, September 15, 2012
I know I should post more :s
yea yea I know. Ive been a bad Risa...
This Is why I didnt promise last time that I would or wouldnt be able to post :o
Ive been UBER busy. With School and summer and modeling and my shop and my youtube and my tumblr.
And GAH XD
And Im also moving soon!!!
And I was sick for like 3 days this past week XD
Ive only got like 4 followers on this blog :T
So lately ive been focusing more of my time towards my tumblr.
or now tumblrs
because I made a new blog on tumblr.
And its a....
*drum roll*
Blood/Gore related Blog!
lol yea.
Mostly blood related but y'know.
Im not just going to be posting stupid pictures of zombies and shit =__________=
Anyone can do that.
I actually want to find artistic images related to blood or wounds. and bloody noses.
So heres a link if you want to check it out CoagulatedSouls
like the name??? :3
I do XD
It came to me in like an instant of trying to think up names to O ,O
and I thought it was very fitting.
So :3
Also if youre looking for a mostly pastel fashion related blog I post allot of "Pastel Goth" and creepy cute pastel things on my usual tumbr risaisafox. I dont JUST post/reblog that sort of stuff on it though so :o I also reblog occasional Avengers fanart/humor, or Lilo and Stitch stuff or funny things or things I just relate to.
I feel like a persons blog(whether it be a"real" blog or a tumblr blog) really says allot about them as a person. and my main blog probably is like looking into my head XD
sooo yea. Thats whats going on lately. my hairs now Teal And Blue half and half if you couldnt tell by the screenshot of the video up there XDDD
Im super happy with it :)
Hope you all are having a splendid time with your lives.
I should try to post more o_____o
WHALE.
LOVE YOU GUYS <3
-Risa Fox ;3
This Is why I didnt promise last time that I would or wouldnt be able to post :o
Ive been UBER busy. With School and summer and modeling and my shop and my youtube and my tumblr.
And GAH XD
And Im also moving soon!!!
And I was sick for like 3 days this past week XD
Ive only got like 4 followers on this blog :T
So lately ive been focusing more of my time towards my tumblr.
or now tumblrs
because I made a new blog on tumblr.
And its a....
*drum roll*
Blood/Gore related Blog!
lol yea.
Mostly blood related but y'know.
Im not just going to be posting stupid pictures of zombies and shit =__________=
Anyone can do that.
I actually want to find artistic images related to blood or wounds. and bloody noses.
So heres a link if you want to check it out CoagulatedSouls
like the name??? :3
I do XD
It came to me in like an instant of trying to think up names to O ,O
and I thought it was very fitting.
So :3
Also if youre looking for a mostly pastel fashion related blog I post allot of "Pastel Goth" and creepy cute pastel things on my usual tumbr risaisafox. I dont JUST post/reblog that sort of stuff on it though so :o I also reblog occasional Avengers fanart/humor, or Lilo and Stitch stuff or funny things or things I just relate to.
I feel like a persons blog(whether it be a"real" blog or a tumblr blog) really says allot about them as a person. and my main blog probably is like looking into my head XD
sooo yea. Thats whats going on lately. my hairs now Teal And Blue half and half if you couldnt tell by the screenshot of the video up there XDDD
Im super happy with it :)
Hope you all are having a splendid time with your lives.
I should try to post more o_____o
WHALE.
LOVE YOU GUYS <3
-Risa Fox ;3
IT. IS SO CUTE. AND SMART.
Its ....
Its just.
GAHHHH XD
Im sitting here for like 5 minutes just watching each little detail of this cute little creature being so smart Q__Q
SO SMART.
I JUST WANT TO HUG HIM. or her. Could be a her.
ya never know. XD
The link to the adorableness found on tumblr Q uQ Its jsut sooo OMFG \(T uT); /
http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m9ig2wRdTP1qdlh1io1_400.gif
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